THANKFUL!

Philippians 4:19 - And my God will supply EVERY need of yours according to HIS riches and Glory in Jesus Christ.

I thank you God for All the blessings in my life. I ask for forgiveness for overlooking all that I already have, for any selfishness I have in my heart. I ask that my heart and mind will continually seek you daily/hourly for your will to be done in everything I do.

I am THANKFUL for the children God has given me to care for, love and teach, I am THANKFUL for the man God chose for me and the relationship he guides us through daily, I am THANKFUL for the jobs we have been given to do all we can for God, I am THANKFUL for the food (good and bad) we have to nurish our bodies with daily, I am THANKFUL for the home we have to live in, the cars we have to drive, the love we have in our hearts, the friends we have to learn from and Most of All today I am THANKFUL for the FREEDOM to love my God.

I want to seek God's face daily for his teaching, love, guidance and protection in life. For me, my husand, my children and all family and friends.

Psalm 119:59 - When I think on my ways, I turn my feet to your testimonies;
I Peter 1:14 - As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance;

Craziness Stage

So I believe we all go through many stages in life.

Sometimes the same stage happens more than once in our lives.

Right now we are very much so going through the craziness stage. So many times when someone has come to me and told me about all the craziness in their lives I always say "It's life and you just have to live it." Right now at this moment I am having a hard time taking my own advice.

It just seems like it's never ending. Everything going on with Marcus is so overwelming for everyone. It seems like 1 minute things are going good and it's going to be back to normal and then boom when you least expect it something happens. I love this boy so much. I pray daily I am making the right decisions for him and loving him as I should. Always pleading God's blood over him for protection and God's consuming love over him for peace and guidance.

Right now we are also hanging by a thread over all this real estate stuff. As of right now I am NOT a fan of realtors. They are about as bad as car sales men.....if not worse. We have been working on our credit for some time now. It seems like no matter how much we work on it there is always something else there. Especially now with the medical bills. So we are just weeks away from being approved for a home loan. We moved in our current house with hopes to buy it. Now that we have been in it and see all the problems it has and some that we can't see, but have learned it has it's a constant battle on what's the best thing to do. We have moved soooo many times in our lives. We really didn't want to have to do it again. We hate moving the kids schools. They are even sick of moving.

Now we are haveing to sit through strangers coming through the house, while I am here with all the kiddo's, to decide if they want to buy it. I so badly want to point out all the flaws. One thing I have learned about Frank and I is that we are WAY to gullable. People just eat us right up and spit us out.

So many prayers and studying happening right now. Trying to take in all that I am suppose to. Needing guidance in every move I make to make the right decisions with finding our home, taking care of our kids, taking care of others babies, being a good wife and friend.

It's this little thing called life and we all must live it!

Here we go Again......

So I have been trying to decide weather or not to talk about all this sickness CRAP or not. I feel it is a part of my life right now, it's a huge struggle, but something I need support and prayer about, so here it all is.

Iam actually a little frightened this go round. I know whatever is to happen will happen. I am in God's hands always.

Now all my life I have had a sensitive stomach so I called it. A little over 2 years ago I started having have big problems with my stomach. Had all kinds of wonderful expensive tests ran, and when I say lots I mean lots by 2 different specialist. In the end it came down to I have Gilbert’s disease, which makes me turn jaundice, and ended up taking Nexium for 3 months when the symptoms finally eased. They also decided that my stomach doesn't digest food quiet as fast as it should so therefore I have to watch what I eat and can't take ANY pill form of vitamin. My stomach gets irritated VERY easily b/c the food or what ever sits there too long.

So it's been a little over 2 years and a few weeks ago I thought I had the same stomach flu that everyone else in NWA had. But then it didn't go away and so after a week of it and dizziness so bad I couldn't walk I finally went to the Dr. They thought I had a bacterial infection in my stomach. After coming home and talking to Frank about everything we realized it was the same thing hitting me again, after 2 years.

This time there are more symptoms and they are a lot more severe than they were before. I have since been to the Dr. 3 times in 2 weeks, had blood tests 3 times, among some other not so fun tests, x-rays, and an ultrasound. All for a huge amoung of $, just so they could tell me they don't know it's something beyond what they can do. So I have to go back to the specialist and have some of the same test done all over again.

I am a little frustrated this go round if you couldn't tell. Throughout my life I have been sick a lot. The only times I was actually really healthy is when I am pregnant. Since I had my last baby I told Frank I don't want to get sick any more, I want to get healthy. Exercise and eat right.
This sickness comes and goes as it pleases. Some days I feel fine like nothing is wrong, other days I can't get off the floor b/c I am so lathargic. I HATE it. I don't have the time, patience, money or stomach for it. <-- Ha Ha stomach for it.

Anyways, that's my rant about it. There isn't very good outcomes for what all this leads too, so I am very frustrated with my body. I know God is in control, he is my healer and I give it to him daily. Just today and many days I need to rant.

Many Blessings

This week has been a roller coaster. So much going on mentally and physically.

I have still been struggling with the stomach junk. Went to the Dr. on Monday and he is fixing me up! Lots of prayers and healing happening already! Thank you Lord!

Marcus us still loving school. That is very much a blessing. This child has loathed (?) school from Kindergarten. Actual fighting and all involved in getting him to go and participate. Just years of prayers. They are paying off in God's good time. Middle School of all times (what I thought would be the worst)(on ye of little faith). He is loving it, getting involved in everything possible, going to bed without us having to tell him, getting up in the mornings and getting ready without war. Like I said an absolute blessing!! So proud of him. Also he is going on an overnight Science field trip and has been asking Frank if he could go too. We all just found out yesterday that Frank is able to take off work and go. A blessing as well!! Thank you God for giving Frank a job that allows him to have the family time we have!!

Natalie was a little bummed this week b/c her Cheer practice got canceled due to rain. :( But her school carnival is tonight and we will be having some mommy daughter time to go to that. She is happy about it. She is a pretty happy girl. Not to much really gets her down.

Little miss Bella has had an exciting week. Since she didn't get much while the older kids were getting all their back to school stuff, this week her mamaw gave her some money and she got to go shopping. We got her 2 new outfits that are too cute, and yesterday at Sam's she got a wipe away ABC book. Came home and did almost the whole book. She loves writing and coloring!

And OH Mister Aden. Gettin so big. He is pulling up on everything. Finally got 2 teeth to come through. Loves to JUMP! He will be walking before long. Always very happy. LOVES to be around any of his brothers and sisters. His favorite place is Marcus' room. :)

Just saying Thank you to our Awesome God for all the blessings in my life. Love my life, love my family, love my God!

Sickness is just Sick.

Sick - In poor health, Mentally unstable, disturbed, Having an urge to vomit, In poor condition.

All just sounds so wonderful, RIGHT?!?!

For some reason this word has been a part of my life, well all my life.

As a child I was always missing school because of being sick. When most kids don't get the measels, mumps or chicken pox, you can bet I did. Strep throat, constant sinus problems.

I Hate Being Sick! I am Totally SICK of being SICK.

The only time in my life that I was truely healthy was when I was pregnant all 4 times. Aside from the normal pregnancy pains, aches and weight I was always perfectly healthy.

I have a prayer that I normally pray for my friends, but oddly enough have not prayed it for myself. So today I am saying my friend prayer for myself along with any other friends in need!

"And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective." James 5:15-16 (NIV)

Dear Lord, You know my friend/family member so much better than I do. You know his/her sickness and the burden he carries. You also know his heart. Lord, I ask you to be with my friend now, working in his life. Let your will be done in my friend's life. If there is a sin that needs to be confessed and forgiven, Lord, please help him to see his need and confess. Lord, I pray for my friend because your Word says I should pray for his healing. I believe you hear this earnest prayer from my heart and that it is powerful because of your promise. I have faith in you to heal my friend, but I also trust in the plan you have for his life. Lord, I don't always understand your ways, and why my friend has to suffer, but I trust you. I ask that you look with mercy and grace toward my friend. Nourish his spirit and soul in this time of suffering and comfort him with your presence. Let my friend know you are there with him through this difficulty. And may you be glorified in his life and also in mine. Amen

I am having 100% faith and believing that this sickness and any and all sickness will stay away from my body. I will have strength and health, and I will know and do the right things with my body to stay that way.

No more junk for me!

Am I missing it?

I want to scream. I am so confused. I feel like I am missing it. Who am I? What am I suppose to do? What do I want to do?

I know why.

I am not listening. I am not giving my whole heart. I feel guilty. I am ashamed. I am trying to do it myself.

I need you Lord, right now today. I am giving it all to you. My guilt, my fears, my sadness, my worries, all of me Lord. I know I can't do it on my own. I know I need you always. I am turning my I's into You Lord. I am broken, I am lost at the moment, I am deaf. I am letting go right now. I pray for you will open my heart, open my ears, open my mind so that I can hear you Lord. I pray for your guidance, love, mercy today. All I know means nothing with you Lord.

I place my children in your hands Jesus. I plead the blood of Jesus over them as they venture into this new year. I ask that they will always remember YOU Jesus.

I place my finances in your hands Jesus. I give these worries to you, because I know you will take care of us. You will show us our real needs and provide for us.

I give you my husband today Jesus. I pray your will and guidance will be done in this life. I ask that you will continually work in his heart Lord.

I give you all Jesus. Love me, Guide me, Lead me Lord.

In your Precious Name,

Amen

New Things on this Journey

Oh My Marcus!
Oh my goodness I am in AW that I have a son that is fixing to be in 5th grade, which if you didn't know is MIDDLE SCHOOL. (Screams......LOTS of Screams) I have been praying about this day for about a year now. I am doing as I always do and putting my son in God's hands. Marcus is a fairly good kid. He has a good heart and honestly doesn't know how to really be bad. So I almost feel as if I am throwing him under the bus by sending him to Middle School. He is excited of course and I have faith in him. I have learned over the past few years to give the poor boy a little faith and trust. As hard for me as that is. I do trust him. So this weekend we will go and he will help pick out all the "cool" school supplies, and he will get some "cool" school clothes, and my son will go to his "cool" new middle school and hopefully he will remember his "cool" mom loves him and his "cool" Jesus is watching over him.

And My Natalie!
She started school last week and is loving it. Her NEW venture right now is cheerleading! So cute. Poor kid has never had any cheer, or dance or gymnastics or anything, but has now decided to take this one. She is somewhat girly, but more so NOT so. So for her first night she was being shy and quiet. So cute to see her out there doing all this girly stuff. The instructor looks at us moms and says did that look right? HA....HA HA. Hopefully she wasn't wanting me to give my input b/c I know NOTHING! Poor Natalie hopefully she will catch on and learn well from the instructor b/c that's her only chance. AND soccer sign ups are over. :)

So here's to my oldest kiddo's growing, learning and loving life!

My Wish for You!

A new school year and mom's nerves are on edge. My Natalie did so well last year almost all straight A's, just 1 B the last semester. She was so so proud. Will she do that well this year? Will she continue to love school and be able to make friends? And Marcus OMGoodness I have an 11 year old going into 5th grade.....YA in Middle School. I remember just saying to my sister in law that I am so not ready for all that when her son went in. Will he hate school? Will he get in with the wrong croud? What?When?Where?andHow?

So my wish, dream and prayer for my oldest children is this:

I pray you will wake up every morning and be humble, know that you are blessed and remember each day is the day God has made, please always rejoice and have joy in it. Be kind, keep your eyes, ears and heart open, remember God loves you and is watching over you. Listen and learn and be wise. Eat good, take care of yourself, take care of others and remember God loves you and is watching over you. And always remember mom and dad love you so so so so much and we are so proud of you and who you are.

There will be more prayers always, but this is for you to start this new year with. Please always come to us for anything because we can all do all things through Christ!

Love you Always!

Mom